I've been in a slump, and I know it. There have been a couple of points where I felt like my old self again, but they've been pretty rare. But yesterday, for no good reason, I picked up. It was incredible, I started the day feeling miserable and that life = failure and all that crap, but then I just turned awesome.
I feel great. I'm exercising, I'm losing weight hand over fist and (and this could just be my imagination) I see mto be getting more smiles from the young ladies around me. I care deeply aout the young lady vote, so this is kinda important to me, you understand.
My creativity is on the rise and my confidence... ah... my confidence is starting to pick up again for the first time in years. Those that haven't known me that long may be suprised to hear that I'm nowhere near as confidant as I was once. I was in a pretty abd relationship that kinda broke me in a lot of ways. But these last couple of days? I've been full of myself in a good way! Usually I'm really shy around the women I've got a thing for. There's the girl I see almost every day I'm at work. I used t call her spider - she has dreadlocks and there's that whole spider bite thing - and I swear, the idea of talking to her gave me cold feet like noones business. Today? Today I walk up to her, tell her that she's one of the most gorgeous people I know and tell her I gotta know her name... AND IT WASN'T ACTUALLY CREEPY! She actually sought me out afterwards and there was follow up in a good way! Well... I say good. Others may disagree ^_^
God, usually I'd have made some sort of self deprecating joke at that point. Not today!
Today is the day that I determine that I am awesome and people who don't like it can blow me. Today is the day where I can feel good about being me. Today is the day that women love me and men love to be around me. Today is the day that I don't have to be the centre of attention and just crack bad jokes to make sure people remember I'm there.
Today is the day that I can be damn glad I'm me, and I hope that tomorrow is too.
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- Listening to: Demented inspiration from the brain.